"...I think that's like... "diagnostic" of knowing that at least one of your identities is considered hateable, or something. When your immediate reaction to feeling those blasts of hate is assuming they must be intended for you, even though the intellectual facts are that they're not. And it feels disturbingly similar to the ingrained reflexes we have when people approach us in certain ways or using certain tones of voice because our instincts are saying they're going to abuse us or bully us even when we know it's really unlikely with some people."
yes
absolutely
also: kudos to you for considering these poisonous attitudes long enough
to type up coherent, effective posts, my brain liquefies at the sight of this kind of thing
(additionally if these comments from a stranger providing no useful commentary seem weird, forgive me, i'm but a simple tumblr mouse)